I want to go now as far as i can

you know what im thinking now..

i want to go now as far as i can
i have a plan before to continue my study for master degree to US or country in europe, maybe this thing can be my strongest reason to live without any doubt from people,

OMG i love my mom, i wanna be with her..
my dad too,

but i feel its better if i live a way way far away from all of these things in my life...

i feel fucked up i swear...